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Why people change



I always ask that to myself…






Was it my fault or their requirements….


I always ask that to myself…






Come January it was cold, in June it turned hot, and then it drizzled…


Happy was I, as ever in those three seasons… then it changed, why


I always ask that to myself…






Perception turned mirage and assumption turned real


Where did I go wrong?


I always ask that to myself






Fill in the blanks was thy nature


I suited the best – time being


Why I could not picture the cruel


I always ask that to myself..






Was it a human in me?


Or was fool in me...


I wonder what I was


I always ask that to myself...






Gratitude was an irony?


Helpfulness was an agony?


It did seems facts now,


Yet


I always ask that to myself...






Reasons galore


Excuses erupt


Shredding me in pieces


Leaving me in turmoil






Why there has to be a reason


Why there has to be a name


Why can’t a relation be above all?


Why all has to be a purpose…


Why tears needs to be defined…






Why can’t it be like a clear sky!






I always ask that to myself.

you... ma love....

There’s a rainbow in da sky

Da sky is ma mind and you have colored it with your being…

There’s a butterfly in da garden…

Da butterfly is ma heart and it’s flying to feel your essence …

There’s a drizzle on ma land…

Da land is ma soul and it’s showered by your eternal love…

There’s a shine on ma pearl…

Da pearl is ma smile which you brought on ma face with your presence

You want to know by now how much I love you…

Your existence has made me human…

Your existence has made me loved…

I was lost in the wild of extremism

Your existence showed me path of humbleness

I was lost in the wild of atrocities

Your existence showed me the path of almighty

I was lost in the wild of humiliation

Your existence showed me the path of admiration.

I was lost in the wild of wilderness…

Your existence showed me path of beautiful landscape

Now, I am lost in the path of your existence…

Now, I am lost in the path of your love….

Now,… I am lost with a song…. Ma life is beautifulllll…

And I wanna you to know…..

I will never ask for more then your love…..

you are a dream... in ma dream

Romancing thy eyes

Romancing thy lips

Romancing thy smiles

Romancing thy beauty

Da treasure of thy being, eternal like an ocean

Pristine like a morning sunshine..

Like an angel

To take me high with thy fly

Like an ocean wave

To make me sail with thy dreams

Like a gem

To make me feel thy wishes

Like a flower

To embrace me with thy fragrance

Like a breeze

To take me away with thy thoughts

Heart so soft

Soul so tender

You are a dream… in ma dream

Koi to sambhale is pagle ko….

Koi to sambhale is pagle ko…


Woh fir se khoya hua hai pyar bhari raahon me






Koi to smabhale is pagle ko…


Woh fir se khoya hua hai pyar bhari baton me..






Koi to sambhale is pagle ko …


Woh fir se khoya hua hai pyar bhari aankhon me






Koi to sambhale is pagle ko…


W0h fir se khoya hua hai pyar bhari muskurahaton me






Koi to sambhale is pagle ko…


Woh fir se khoya hua hai pyar bhari zulfon ki jhaanv me






Thehrta nahin main aaj kuch is tarah…


Koi to sambhale mujh pagle ko…






“Hisab kis tarah se karun teri aarzoo ka….


Mehel jo khade kiye hai wwadon ke… “






Fariston ne jagaya aaj, main so raha tha justju me


Ye khwab hai sayyad, khwab hi tha…










Koi to sambhale is pagle ko….


Woh fir se khoya hua hai…. Khuda ke aasiyane me

echoes .......... "within"

Mistake was my expressions, but that was not an intention…



Mistake was my era, but that was not an intention…


Why you feel so hurt or I feel so missing


That was no ones intention ………






The place we shared will always be joyous


The phrases we shared will all always be profound


The waiting thoughts we shared will always be awaited


The small season we shared will always be retained


The colors we shared will always be searched in rainbow..






You inspired me paths of passion


You inspired me paths of fashion


You inspired me paths of action






Always away yet so near was your jubilant anecdote


Always away yet so near was your astonished couplets


Always away yet so near was your enchanting feelings


Always away yet so near was your vent of love


Always away yet so near was your content hugs






Shall I stop somewhere, I wish….


Entrenched so deep you are,


I should not,…


And that’s an intention …..

Kuch khoya sa tha aaj ............ :)

Kuch khoya sa tha aaj



Door unhi wadion me, jahan gujare the kuch pal, sath sath


Kuch khwab jahan bune the humne, sath sath


Aankhon me dube rehte, lehron ko samete hue, sath sath






Kuch khoya sa tha aaj


Un lamhon me jab teri angdai mausam badal diya karti thi…


Un hawaon me jo tujhe chu kar kabhi gujra karti thi


Un labson me jo hasin sapne sajaya karte the…






Kuch khoya sa tha aaj


Tere aanchal ki khusbu me , jo madhosh kar diya karti thi....


Teri subah aur teri raaton me , jo mujhse hua karti thi…


Teri masti bhari adaon me , jo, na jaane kaun si harkat kar diya karti thi…










Kuch khoya sa tha aaj,…


Bas yunhi..


Tere dil ke kisi kone me, jo kabhi mera hua karta tha…


Teri rooh me, jo, aaj bhi sayaad, sehlati hai meri parchaiyon ko…

dastaan e khamoshi

faasle kitne bhi ho, dil ab bhi dhadakte hai…



aaj bhi teri guftagu hai


aaj bhi teri aarjoo hai…






Na rulati hai, na satati hai, ab teri yeh khamoshi..


woh pal kitna bechain tha, jab tu pass nahin thi,…


yeh pal bhi kitna bechain hai jab tu pass hai, mere khayalon me…






teri hi kasis thi, ke hum khinche chale aaye…


mukarar maut ko taal aaye…






tujshe milne ki , lakiren thi mere hathon me…


dosti jo karni thi… sahraa se






tere diye gam ko aaj bhi sarahte hai…


tujhe bewafa nahin samjte hum…


saayad hum hi nahin samaj paaye,… wafaa ke mayne






sirf ye gujaris hai…






“ dil ko cheej samaj kar , na khela karo mere yaaron…


Ke hoslon ne , ab bhi daaman sajaye rakhaa hai…”

Oh Emotions .....

Emotion











Why you came again…


Happy as I was being aloof…


Happy as I was being safe….


Safe from all hurts…


Happy as I was being never perturbed


Happy as I was leaving without life….






OH emotions….






Why you came again….


Jealous of my life you came….


Singing a song…


“I just came, to say... Some one loves you”


.. And make me cry…






OH emotions…


You came.


Making me again sensual


Make me feel the distance of bridges...


Enlightening my verbs and nouns…


Gathering me within






OH emotions…..


You came…


Make me fly with her hands in ma hands.


Make me feel her arms in ma arms…


Make me smile again with her shines and her shy…


Make me alive again with her warmth in ma life…










OH emotions…


You came.


Just to worry me again…






OH emotions…


Am not goanna cry this time…


Even if she goes away…






OH emotions….i will rejoice with her emotions…


I will live her dreams


I will live her wish


I will live her smile


I will live her moments….






"With which she made my soul and heart affluent and content


Pure and pearl…."

Reflections... "of"

Never in a thought, I ever met such a beautiful thought…



So mellow and so sweet


Eyes so expressive


Smile so jubilant


Heart so loving


Soul so affectionate






Never in a thought, had I ever met such a beautiful thought….


Reading you is like a symphony


Listen you is like a harmony


Color you is like a blossom of happiness


Writing you is like a beauty carved with the grace …






Never in a thought, had I ever met such a beautiful thought….


Living you every moment


Feeling you every where


Searching you in ma every word






With a sunshine, with the stars,


With the night, with the waves, breeze coming along your affluent aroma…


Never in a thought, had I ever met such a beautiful thought….

...... "at times".........

at times, nothing seems to be interesting

and you wonder what to do,

at times, you question your own existence,

and you wonder , do I still breath???

at times, the valley of the flowers seems dry

and you wonder, where all the butterflies have rushed???

at times, your friends don’t smile…

and you wonder, what you are there for???

at times , the hugs and the kisses distance

and you wonder, where have you gone wrong

at times, you are asked a question

and you wonder, if the question itself is an answer

at times, you resist,

and you wonder, if at all it would have had happen then???

Worries seem endless, and at times…

You ask…

Oh my beloved let me rest on your lap and you hide me away…..

in search of....

Days pass by leaving behind memories…



Memories to thrill with thy shadows


Deserts burning


Paths hurting


Eyes with dry water


Lips with cold silence


Soul roaming wild


Heart gloomy


Never ending quest to voice my sound...


Now …as you not beside me….


Mirror reflects only you and I search for myself…


Why I loved you so much...


Away from my Sun, I tremble for the day light,


Away from my clouds, I crave for my rain drop…


Away from my star, da moon has elapsed






Da nights seems endless,


My being looks like remains….






Come back……






My arms open, eager and desperate


to envelope you for ever….

whispers of silence

Lay in archives, I whisper the silence of your absence.







Where have you gone….???


The open sky to raise my smile, when I was child….


The mornings, running to hug the cheers and echoes


Liberated from responsibilities…


The neat and tidy envelop of my school books…


The writings helping me stood with a proud ….


Busy chatting in class, mischief to be punished….


Tossing the school bags with careless whispers…


The warm welcomes and the hot food when am back from the school…


Laziness and resulted shouting from you … dad…


The demands irritating you at times yet fulfilling all my wishes…


Never allowing my eyes to burn with tears….


The CHOCOBARS at midnight, even in cold…..


The first movie I saw with you, I still remember “SOUND OF MUSIC”


alive in my memories…


Guiding me, the path to observe the humanity…






No words and no means,


Feeling your words at every step


Missing you dad…


(Dad, where are you, am still your small child, I dun wanna grow up)






I lay in archives…..and I whisper the silence of your absence…

Thanks

Doctors and Nurses, gaze me



The ejecting blood and the pain…


The feeling hard to sustain


The agony bursting yet keeping up the smile to clam dear ones…






The failure of first major operation jeopardy my existence…


The midnight of disaster, tears and whispers,


Unawake and unaware, unconscious trying to structure the happening.


Remembering those awful days,


Lay on the hospital bed, helpless


7 days without a drop of water,


Artificial vein pushing the fluid to keep me alive…


Drugs and meds, the vicious smell all around me, killing me soft…


Burning desires and anger to runaway from the present


Punishing me more


Just wishing my lungs to regenerate the energy,


Desperate for the glimpse of the beautiful sunrise…






Even describing makes me shiver, the fight for existence I fought through...






Wish of the almighty and my karma, the prayers and wishes


Keeping me alive…






Thanks to all,